Especially with the last song, it became clear to me that creativity can stop and reach a low point. As described before, I had great difficulties finding a second part for the first part, and the first attempts led to a disaster. It may sound immodest, but whenever I get on with a song, I have a total conviction that it is going to be something great that will make music history, and that all the composers of the past are just an irrelevant introduction to what I will ultimately create with my genius. That might sound ridiculous and exaggerated, but I think such feelings of extreme passion and conviction are important to create music at all. But whenever these creative depths come, and I simply can’t achieve simply musical things I have in my mind, I get totally opposite extreme feelings. For this moment, I am convinced that I am totally musically incapable, and my time as a musician is now finally over, and I should probably better deal with other things in the future … But creativity is not only about talent, but also about perseverance and the strength to continue working even when everything looks dark. Because after every low, there is a high which ultimately leads to a finished song, which puts me back in a mood that I’ve written music history, and all composers like Mozart etc. can fuck off in comparison to me